Monday, July 20, 2009

Meet Murphy

Penelope Murphy Harris
lol or Popeye

Monday, July 13, 2009

since im up anyways

Its 7am this time around and i have come to the conclusion that sleep is no longer an option for me.

The baby shower was fun, I got lots of good gifts! Oops, I mean WE, as in our family. We are doing thank you cards this weekend, which should be fun.
I have set up Penelope's diaper bag for when we go to the hospital to pop her out. Newborn baby diapers are so small, our cat could wear them if she wanted.
Her crib is almost complete, just need the pink giraffe comforter that we are ordering this friday and she will be set! We also need a net so Sneeze can't jump in with her.

My feet are HUGE. I'm use to having scrawny feet that you can see my bones and veins through. I take pride in them being this way because they were the last small thing on my body. My legs used to be a great attribute, but now they as well suck.

Things are getting more hectic with Chad and I as the due date approaches. We both have different concerns and different ways of thinking that its almost impossible to agree on anything having to do with the baby.
Though our relationship is still great and we are still getting along, I think the nerves are still trying to bring us down. Wont work nerves!

I met some of his Mom's side of the family at the shower, and saw his aunt Annelle again. Debby's sisters Becky and Laurie showed up as well as her niece, Wendy. I love how they all look alike, all very pretty. Mom and I sat with them and talked, I was nervous because I had never met them but the minute we started talking it was like I was talking with my OWN family. They are just as out spoken and silly as I am.
Annelle is his father's sister, last time I had met her, I was about 2 months pregnant and had terrible morning sickness so we didn't really speak. This time around we sat next to each other at Fuentes and actually spoke alot. She really isn't like Chad's father at all. Charles is more awkward and uncomfortable, or was in the begining. I wasn't shy this time and spoke very openly because I was mostly just tired and still excited, which turned out to be a good thing because we got along really well.

I'm sure Ill think of more things that were on my mind this weekend, but Im so drained that I need to attempt this sleep thing again.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

a little busy this weekend and week

Tomorrow we are going to lunch with Chad's parents, then His mom, him and I are going to an ultrasound. We have to pick up the apt a little because my Aunt Dalia, cousin Martha and her two kids are coming into town. I think we are most likely spending the day with them and my family.
Saturday I get to just chill around then go to the baby shower. I wish Chad was off because he rarely gets to see his family and I have never met some of them before. Hope it isn't too akward.
Sunday we will spend time with our families I'm sure.
Monday mine leaves and he works so we get to chill.
Tuesday we have our birthing class.
Wednesday we meet with our pediatrician at 8am which is hella early for us.
Thursday we have an apt with Dr. Adams and this will be the last time we see her because our Dr will be back next week.
Friday we have another ultra sound to watch Murphy Girl's weight and fluids.

I'm used to not doing anything at all in one week, this is really too much.

Oh here is my smashed face baby lol. She looks black here because her tongue was hanging out and her face was smooshed against my belly.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Im getting a fever :( its lame. The nurse said if it worsens i have to go to labor and delivery. I dont want to have a baby yet. I can wait! Ahh!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009


I laid in bed for a good hour and a half I suppose. I laid on my right, and it was uncomfortable. I laid on my left, and I could feel every movement Murphy was making. I tried my back, my breast began to suffocate my face, my lower back felt like it was splitting in half, and my pelvis was experiencing the most pressure I have ever felt through out this pregnancy. Nothing seemed to work either. I gave up on sleeping tonight. I may just have to wait until morning, when I'm extremely exhausted to just fall asleep.

I realized that I think too much right before I fall asleep. This may also be a reason why I can not sleep but sometimes, I can't help but think of whats going wrong in my life, when having my first child is supposed to "be a very happy" time in my life. Today I had to accept that I'm not going to be able to be a new mother and a full time college student this fall. I will have to wait until spring of 2010. I know it doesn't necessarily matter how long it takes me to finish college as long as I do it, but it sucks to see friends and people I went to high school with doing college stuff and knowing they will be done with in a year or two and I will still be getting started. I don't have much credits to go off of anyways.

Chad and I aren't struggling surprisingly for him being the only one working, and this is why I feel that we are so happy together. Don't get me wrong, we have the occasional argument, but its nothing that last more than a couple of hours at the most. Watching most young couples our age, who are also pregnant with their first child, I've noticed that many of them seem unhappy, and the relationship seems almost, forced. As if neither of the two really love each other anymore, its just routine in what they have to do in order to give this baby a "good" life. We have calculated, we were together for about a month at most before we got pregnant and let me tell you, it was not intentional. Chad isn't in college and has no intentions as of right now to exactly go to college. He was also not in the right state of mind when we met but, he matured very quickly and took full responsibility for our carelessness the minute we found out we were pregnant. I feel that this may have been when I fell in love with him. I'm not going to lie and say, "we were in so much love" because we weren't. We had been dating for a short amount of time and were still getting to know each other. We still are getting to know each other.

So here I am, its 2 in the morning, 35 weeks pregnant. My boyfriend, i guess you could call him fiance, is sleeping peacefully in the other room while I sit on the couch with my laptop in my face. And I can't think of anything I want more in life, than to just lay on my belly and go to sleep.

Birthing Classes

I wasn't expecting for it to be a full house but no, everyone and their mom showed up...literally.
It was kind of awkward to meet people and talk about our pregnancy, I have never felt comfortable doing that sort of thing. We watched this corny video on contractions and labor. The instructor warned us that next week we are taking a tour of the hospital and watching a labor video that is "X" rated. I wonder how well chad will handle that. Its not a natural birth labor, so it should be all good. As long as the snacks are in the back of the room, I don't mind what happens.

Monday, July 6, 2009

No baby today

I had a real good feeling that today or this evening I would go into labor. Instead my lower belly is cramping, my lower back feels like its breaking and my hips are ripping apart. Still no actual labor signs such as water breaking or contractions. Great.